I’m going to try something I have never done before today. Going to ask you to put some music on while you listen to this post! Music is a fundamental in my life and has been since I was a teenager. It is so strong in the way that it affects us and our moods. We subscribe to Spotify and even the children are comfortable using it and having access to the broad range of music to stream to their playroom. I’m grateful for music!
So you look at this picture of me working out and you think; some high energy music behind it. But what is really going on in my mind is serenity.
I want you to get yourself a nourishing drink and get comfortable and then pop on Labrinth (feat. Emeli Sande) Beneath Your Beautiful. Now at first the lyrics might seem irrelevant; but that’s music for you. Music is open to your own interpretations, when you are listening the music is yours. You can bring your own meaning to things and instantly this song resonated with me while I have been working on seeing my inner beauty through my journey in health. As soon as you view this song as a conversation with self, you should understand where I am coming from x
“You’ve carried on so long
You couldn’t stop if you tried it
You’ve built your wall so high
That no one could climb it
But I’m gonna try”
If you have missed it, I’m blogging for Fernwood Waurn Ponds now and exploring that opportunity to embrace health. And yep I’d love it if you could pop over and like their page to support me and what I do – and they have a legitimately awesome club so if you are local and know someone who would appreciate it please do share the word.
My Dad has always told me not to embrace the word try. Isn’t that a bit of the old Star Wars wisdom; don’t try – do. Whilst I live in that philosophy of ‘doing’ these lyrics still struck a chord with me. I have absolutely carried on slogging my body and mind being a Mum and running our business and built a psychological wall so high that I felt I couldn’t climb back to physical, functional health and strength. Perhaps someone reading can relate. It all got so hard I didn’t know how to get back. I decided that something awful would happen if I pushed my body.
Guess what. Nothing awful is happening. I’ve been on my Fernwood journey for a month or so now and things are just getting better and better. But not completely in an ‘instant results’ kind of way and overall in a much more deep learning than expected. There have been lots of great side effects on sleep quality and mood, but you can’t realllly see much on my body for now. However I can feel a lot. I feel like my body is moving and stretching. Stretching! I have learnt how tightened up my whole body is.
I also get instant results from beating my PB again and again. That feels ace, and it feels empowering to know how to walk into a gym and move my body. Each visit creating long term results. Something I love-love-loved was getting back to group classes (my fav’s are Body Balance and Yoga). Body Balance was in the dark! I just LOVED that. I’m also very impressed with the calibre of the people leading the group classes. The people I have met have been authentic, well qualified, caring group session leaders and the women attending the classes were a broad section of women I could relate to as my sister, my Mother or Aunt or of course friend.
It hasn’t necessarily been an easy thing to attend; it is such a busy time of year. My hot tip is to make time, don’t look for it. It always feels twice as good as thought it might once you are finished a workout. I also recommend that you let go of what you think it looks like to go to the gym. Just freaking go! No-one cares what you look like. I’m wearing 10 year old shoes and some op shop pants; and don’t get me wrong, I would prefer something that breaths more, something more bright and fun and motivational because goodness knows how I love colour. This is what I have now. Start there. Start with whatever you have that gets you to the gym. Start.
Would you let, me, see beneath your beautiful?
Would you let, me, see beneath your perfect?
Take it off now girl, take it off now girl
I wanna see inside
Would you let, me, see beneath your beautiful tonight?
I’m gonna climb and you can run, freak out,
I’ll hold your hand and then we’ll jump right out
We’ll be falling, falling
But that’s okay
Cause I’ll be right here
I just wanna know