A few weeks back one of my posts went crazy popular; Pip’s Healthy Life Toolkit continues to attract a heap of traffic and has sparked a lot of conversation. I loved that, because sharing what works for us to benefit others is a keystone in the reason why I blog. I was pretty surprised given the readership on that post, that no-one ‘called me on’ something. Something was missing and it is something that I consider has strong potential to be a life-changing fundamental for myself and for many others.
I talk a lot about diet and how refining things for my gut has really been quite important in achieving simple daily happiness. So where is diet’s good mate exercise in my life? It was to some extent the ‘elephant in the room’ until now. I have a lot of belief that committing to exercise will have a similarly profound influence on my daily happiness. What is your relationship with exercise? Are you on a journey? I would love you to share it with me.
It feels pretty out there to put my stuff in the public eye. My journey revolves around fitness and not around weight, but I am happy to share the up and down of that with you too. I am 178cms tall and today I weigh 63kgs. I have weighed as little as 57kgs during hyperemesis and in my teenage years. I have weighed 78 and 83kgs when I was an exchange student and after I could eat again in my second pregnancy. Yes, I gained 26kgs in the 5 months between eating and giving birth! I dropped that weight through breastfeeding and over an 18 month period.
Until now I didn’t talk about exercise, because there didn’t seem to be a place for it and possibly because I couldn’t. Despite appearances and sharing spurred on by a greater goal of making people feel comfortable in their own skin, I can be intensely private. Sharing these before pics was a really difficult call; but because this journey is much more about fitness than body image, it is really more through words that I will hope to show you my progress in the coming months. I hope that you come to see a stronger me in a lot of ways.
Before today, not only could I not talk about exercise, but I have not been able to really exercise for a while and that is something I am not proud of. Though I have made a few attempts, I have come to a point where like many things in life it is time to get some help. Getting help doesn’t mean I weak 🙂 It makes me STRONG enough to know when the most sensible thing is not to go it alone. Ok, so I could excuse myself with saying I had a medical condition for a few years, as well as that I was pregnant and had hyperemesis and then I’m a busy Mumma. Truth is there were months in between that could have made a difference. I could find 20 minutes, but I don’t. Maybe some of those things are genuinely intertwined in the many reasons that now I can not run around the block without fear of passing flat out. I got away with it because I don’t really look like I needed to be told to go exercise. Instead I’m just bearing this to you.
The funny thing is that when people look at me; unfit is probably not the first thing that comes to mind. Because I’m thin. I eat well. I’m happy. Believe me though, I’m far from fit right now. I have even been teetering on underweight, though I do love to eat, have a love affair with food and I am grateful that I don’t have a negative relationship with food. Still as I say, though I’m ashamed to say, that running up the street 50 metres has me seriously puffing. When I watch shows like The Biggest Loser I relate to the feelings of exhaustion, fear of exertion and lack of self worth associated.
And I have some really down days. Sometimes I think of them as Zombie days.. they’re just flat. More on that over time. I know that exercise can affect that. I’d like to see.
I suppose if I hadn’t been fit in buy synthroid 100 mcg the past I might not even know what I was missing, but I grew up super active. Between Little Athletics, Netball and a culture of outdoor play I was pretty happy with my fitness growing up. I’m interested to see what regular exercise like that will do to my energy levels and whether they will touch on what I had 15 or 20 years back.
It struck me that for everything I can battle and beat with sheer optimism, initiative and perseverance, I would need a special kind of support to get myself to a place of embracing fitness. It’s a mind game as much as it requires physical power. For example in the past, I have imagined people are looking at me working out saying “why is the skinny girl so weak.” That sort of self talk is uber-crazy-powerful. It takes a conscious effort to talk that voice down. I believe that I could do it alone but I know that I don’t have to.
Every few days, just nearby I drive past Fernwood Fitness Waurn Ponds. You can like their FB page just below (without even leaving this post :P). I know for myself that having a community to share life experiences with is just what I am about, what makes me tick. Social stuff. I had past experiences that told me I wanted something personal, and the idea of a women only gym appealed to me too. After reading the Fernwood Top 10 Reasons for Personal Training; I decided that personal training presented that extra level of support that would help me regain confidence in my strength. I know that for the achievable financial investment a membership helps people regain agility, energy and enthusiasm that will translate into better productivity.
So there is FEAR here. An old foe of mine. A bit of a bully that likes to linger in the back of mind and play with my ability to live life to the fullest. Don’t worry, most people have this going on. Anyways I decided in around June-ish this year that enough was enough, and I contacted Fernwood Waurn Ponds and have been working with them on a plan to get FIT. Finally, I am ready to get started. I’m going to share the experience with you and I hope that this will inspire you, if not in fitness; simply in the context of going for what you want and getting it.
It is possible you have a goal too. Get fit to become pregnant. Get fit to beat depression. Get fit to increase your longevity. Get fit to run a marathon; mark that off your bucket list. I’m going to share my journey with you all and one of the first messages I have is that you don’t have to be wanting to lose weight to join the gym.
I want to be fit and I’m going to go get it. If you’re a local and interested in starting your own journey – I’d love to have company! Until next time..